Taking in the Cards on the Table Part 1

[Click on link and open in separate window and play as background music.: Disclosure-Willing and Able ft Kwabs]

[ https://www.youtube.com/watchv=1wc3RtxGftA]

My heart was beating, racing wildly.

Thoughts scattered as I tried to recollect what just happened...

Digest what you said...

"I'm sorry...

Me...You...We can't be...

My river's run dry... you need to move on"

"Why?" I asked "Weren't we building love to last through the ages?" I asked

"Didn't we promise to put in our all to make this work?"

"You and me...together...forever?"

"No! I won't give you up! I won't give up on you! I won't give up on us!"

You just stood there...polka faced...looking at me,

And when I thought you'd put your hands in mine and pull me to an embrace...

You up and walked away! You didn't even look back!

Strength failed my whole being.

Gravity hit me and my legs gave in to the shock.

I dropped to the floor in a messy pile...

The room was spinning!

This wasn't how it was supposed to be!

How was I to move on? I was invested!

I thought that with my love...your love...our love... we'd conquer everything...

I put all my cards on the table...

And it still wasn't enough...why?

Nothing except my brain willed me to move on.

Why? Well because it was difficult!

Impossible to even consider! (Well in heart, way to go body!)

"C'mon!" I said, "You can do this..."

"Pick yourself up and let's get moving..." I nudged "at least physically..."

"Any time now...just one little step...that's all you need to take..."

"One step?...Sounds easier said than done!" I retaliated to my brain

"After all, that's what got me here...one step in love and boy didn't I fall!"

"Deeply, madly in love...for what'!" I yelled

Logic told me to move on but I couldn't....

I was...I am stuck...stuck right here where you left me...

Stuck on you...

The battle was on: mind versus heart,

Each dictating two very different things...

And both with wills of steel.

On one end my mind came to terms what needed to be done,

On the other my heart and my body combined to be ever so unwilling!

Tears filled my eyes because I couldn't believe it...

You were done with me...

For a moment time paused, rewound and I saw us,

What we were, what we could and should have been...in full colour

We were happy again...

Memories of the love we built ...the times we shared danced before me...

Your warmth and laugh filled the room, then mine and we were in harmony,

Our lights intertwined and shone brightly as we danced to our song....

Remember...that song...the one that got us started...

Disclosure by Willing and Able Ft. Kwabs

Because we gave full disclosure that were willing and able to make it work...

So what now?...

What does one do when the other isn't willing yet you're both able?

How does one take in and accept such full disclosure?