The other day,
I read a post on Instagram.
They had this question:
"What was the moment you
decided to start on your fitness journey?"
I read it again,
And laughed.
Never.
Didn't start last year,
Haven't started this year,
So for now-
I am not on any 'fitness' journey.
Before those furrows on your
forehead get any deeper,
Let me tell you my story.
I've had some good days.
May be I can now refer to them
as my golden days,
When fitness was like winning
an Oscar,
And I, my friend, had Oscars in
every way you could think it possible.
Running:
Done that and surpassed what I
thought my gold legs could do.
Cross-Fitness:
Done that, and surpassed my
expectations, despite being in the worst state.
Swimming:
Nailed it and would do it over
and over again.
I was top of my fitness game.
I was so content and pleased
with myself,
I could have paid a person
called Pat to give me a pat on my shoulder!
So what happened?
Well,
I forgot...
I forgot what I had seen.
That when you get past 25,
There is a certain weight that
crouches,
Almost waiting to jump in and
occupy all empty curves and crevices.
I forgot that weight gain is
like a lover gone rogue.
Sure, they smile with you, give
you a good time,
At least it feels like it,
Only to later realize it was
all a lie,
All they ever wanted was your
pound of flesh.
All those sweet treats and
savoury delights;
Those tall milkshakes or cheesy
snacks,
They were all a fib!
All a way to get into my body,
Inwardly implode and outwardly
explode to my destruction.
Worst bit is,
I don't think I even noticed
when I imploded,
Or exploded in size.
I didn't feel myself lose a
fitness Oscar, or another,
That was until some hard
realities hit me.
Like when my clothes became a
bit to clingy,
And they know I'm not the
clingy type.
I suddenly understood what
people meant when they said,
"I've put on weight and I
feel physically uncomfortable."
I came to realize it as a
truth,
Not just a passing statement.
Who knew sleeping could become
uncomfortable!
Best recollection yet was when
I went up Mt. Longonot.
As we approached the location
by bus,
I felt doomed and damned in
every way.
The pathway was winding and
high,
The people at the top looked
like dots!
How was unfit me getting to the
top?
It felt like the mountain was
laughing at me.
I remember people running
about-warming up! Ha!
I was conserving my
energy-didn't have much of it to waste.
Plus I gave my word to do the
climb,
There was no backing out!
I'm a person of my word and my
former glory days wouldn't allow it.
Hardly had we started the
climb,
Did I start having serious
doubts as to whether I'd make it.
Each step up the ascent was
like trying to rev an old engine:
Almost impossible-unless well maintained.
It felt like my systems were
shutting down.
Even the stick I had for
support became somewhat an impediment,
Extra baggage like the extra
weight on my body.
I regretted letting myself go,
And also why I dared such a
feat,
When I was so horribly unfit!
I won't lie that I didn't
consider quitting;
But thankfully Jesus saw me
through,
As well, my pride, will and
determination wouldn't let me quit,
Nor did a handful friends, one
of whom I remain indebted to,
God bless you indeed!
With these, we emerged
victorious.
What a high that was!
A glimmer of yester days...
A forecasting of what fitness
could potentially enable me to do...
In future...
For now, I ticked off climbing
Mt. Longonot:
It is done and dusted!
Memo to myself:
Longonot and hiking is not to
be attempted again while still in this state of unfitness!
After all these highs and lows,
I am well aware of my reality.
Check it.
I am unfit!
But I don't need no Fit-Bit.
Cause I dance to a Fit Beat ;-)
Why haven't I started my 2018
fitness journey?
Let's face it.
Truth is I'm already unfit and,
I've become a bit pudgy.
Since the pudge isn't going to
just go away,
I might as well enjoy life a
little...in moderation;
Ride the wave till it crashes
on the sea shore.
Then when I'm ready... mostly
decided,
To be done with this stage of
my life,
I'll take the dive,
Catch a new wave.
Don't worry, it won't be too
long.
I will get started sooner
rather than later...
Besides,
I can already see the sea
shore.
A clear indication that:
This wave I'm on is about to
crash.
