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and Able ft Kwabs]
My
heart was beating, racing wildly.
Thoughts
scattered as I tried to recollect what just happened...
Digest
what you said...
"I'm
sorry...
Me...You...We
can't be...
My
river's run dry... you need to move on"
"Why?"
I asked "Weren't we building love to last through the ages?" I asked
"Didn't
we promise to put in our all to make this work?"
"You
and me...together...forever?"
"No!
I won't give you up! I won't give up on you! I won't give up on us!"
You
just stood there...polka faced...looking at me,
And
when I thought you'd put your hands in mine and pull me to an embrace...
You
up and walked away! You didn't even look back!
Strength
failed my whole being.
Gravity
hit me and my legs gave in to the shock.
I
dropped to the floor in a messy pile...
The
room was spinning!
This
wasn't how it was supposed to be!
How
was I to move on? I was invested!
I
thought that with my love...your love...our love... we'd conquer everything...
I
put all my cards on the table...
And
it still wasn't enough...why?
Nothing
except my brain willed me to move on.
Why?
Well because it was difficult!
Impossible
to even consider! (Well in heart, way to go body!)
"C'mon!"
I said, "You can do this..."
"Pick
yourself up and let's get moving..." I nudged "at least
physically..."
"Any
time now...just one little step...that's all you need to take..."
"One
step?...Sounds easier said than done!" I retaliated to my brain
"After
all, that's what got me here...one step in love and boy didn't I fall!"
"Deeply,
madly in love...for what'!" I yelled
Logic
told me to move on but I couldn't....
I
was...I am stuck...stuck right here where you left me...
Stuck
on you...
The
battle was on: mind versus heart,
Each
dictating two very different things...
And
both with wills of steel.
On
one end my mind came to terms what needed to be done,
On
the other my heart and my body combined to be ever so unwilling!
Tears
filled my eyes because I couldn't believe it...
You
were done with me...
For
a moment time paused, rewound and I saw us,
What
we were, what we could and should have been...in full colour
We
were happy again...
Memories
of the love we built ...the times we shared danced before me...
Your
warmth and laugh filled the room, then mine and we were in harmony,
Our
lights intertwined and shone brightly as we danced to our song....
Remember...that
song...the one that got us started...
Disclosure by Willing and Able Ft. Kwabs
Because
we gave full disclosure that were willing and able to make it work...
So
what now?...
What
does one do when the other isn't willing yet you're both able?
How
does one take in and accept such full disclosure?
